Lets try to clean the chaos i have in to my head.....get an order for all
So....I want to put all the knowledge I have in to a book....but I have a problem..how? How to say or show all...just in one book....how to make all I have in to my head to be understood by others...how to make them understand how important all this is....that’s a good question...how to make them see that’s all about them not me.
I want to share 2 things.....important for me....first...how a dark healing is working...how a dark healer is using the mind...soul, body....even intuition...to help another human to deal with his fears and not just....and another thing.. I want to share real stories....some of my cases i had to deal with interesting stories showing different situations from a humans life...different problems...different solutions....and maybe through all of them....someone will find the answer....at the right moment...I’m talking about the one who think about himself that he is weird or or or....comparing to the others.
Life is amazing when you actually understand that you have it for self discovery.... all you have to confront is just for you to grow...to experience different things.. different emotions...that’s life for. But discovery is a journey...a life time journey.. its not like you meet your best version on the corner of the street...and say.. here you are..ohhhh.....well not....we all have to work on it.. everyday.....and its a hell of a job.....
I start reading 3 books... ok... I have my own style of reading....better don’t ask me about it.....it’s like ..in the same time....but the idea is.. that i thought that through these books I will find a way... how to combine all the infos from my head in a good combination... useful for everyone...but nope....as usual.... I have to create my way... I could not just find a way.....why? do i want easy? Yeah right.....dream on goddess...keep dreaming on that...illusions....
Through the stories i want to share...its just showing the idea that...people are having the same basic problem...they feel an lack of belonging.....that feeling that make you feel free and home.....and everyone is searching for it.. even if you don’t realize it.....all its about that...to feel that you belong....Even myself...i confront the same feeling a lot.....that..i don’t belong...where i am now....but are days when i feel I’m at the right place....so.. I have the balance I guess...
I actually realized that...this feeling makes me grow..........pushes me forward most of the time...making me evolving and flying higher all the time.....because I feel I don’t belong... and somehow I have to create... that place… where to feel that i belong....aaa...to be clear...my dom part feels that don’t have a place where it belongs....not yet......the healer from inside...feels that....from time to time.....even the goddess....in rest..im just fine.....me and my multipolarity....And now.. if you had the idea that you are a weirdo.. dear reader...aaah.. just focus a little more on me and you will see.. here....what actually weirdo means... but.. I’m fine.....ha ha ha.....and I love myself...when I do love myself...and I actually hate myself.. when I hate myself..... Even this… is part of divine love...to be real with your feelings....and if you are capable of loving...I presume… you are capable of hating too......why? because is actually the same feeling...just different polarities.....more electrons then protons...ha ha ha.....
Its funny yes...but its actually real....
So...what do I want to put in the first book......well.....help me guess all....ha ha ha....
And how to do that? ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..its seems impossible?
Ohhh yes...I guess this is the thing I am was searching for....an impossible....to have a challenge… just to transform this impossible... in possible.
But still.....I wrote the blog....and i didn’t found my answer........maybe not the answer is the one I have to look for...maybe I have to focus better on the question.....WTF do I want from this book?....maybe if I answer to this question... I will know how to start the book.....
And as a conclusion.....i hate maybes........grrrrrrr