Maybe finally i will finish this topic.....who knows....i can still hope right?
Even hope is something that makes us humans...so..why to deny who we are? because its not good? who says that?.....we have to accept all what make us humans...like it or not..this is it..but look at the bright side...we are amazing creations..the most complex .....just dare to take a look inside of you...and you will see where God put the magic....ha ha ha....inside of us...
We all are so obsessed of control..even if we don’t realize it...that’s actually the base of our daily stress...and we don’t realize it....we are just so afraid of let go at this stupid control.....we want to control all.....but how? how you can control nature and universe? hello......stop....relax....accept...simple as that...accept who you are..but for this....first thing....do you know who you are? well...this is the problem..nope..we dont...we just pretend that we know....but actually we need more than a life time to know who we are..its our life journey...ha ha ha...and we dont get it...we focus on different directions....skipping the part that all its about us as individuals..and all is about this life journey of finding ourselfs.....funny right?
And ironic...why we dont know..its has to be so simple....because we have ourself all the time....well...2 things...because we focus on others first of all...and second..we are afraid of ourself...and we run... that's an irony..no joke
We are like all what is alive on this planet.....a lion....you consider it a monster because it just surviving...ok eating other animals......but is it a monster? nope....or....as a big tree..you look at it..so huge and dangerous ..you can die if you fall from it....but....wowww..its an amazing tree....or or or....
So why our monster is just considered bad? because can harm others....yes..that's right...but..its still the one who actually save us.....its not the part who chooses what is good or bad..is the part who reacts to save us ...is the part who don't gives a shit about other opinions....its the part who reacts just at what it has in front as a stimulation...and the reaction is always for saving us.....surviving....even if that is considered bad, because yes can be bad....yes..can transform us in monsters...but all is just a natural reaction...of what means to be a human..all is about our own surviving....
And....my advice is....dare to know your monster...because when you actually know it..you can control it better...or you know...how it reacts at different stimulations...so this is more...then just hiding it and lock it....and when you don’t expect...he will react...and scare you....so..do as i do....use it....consume it...for your own creative side or passion...explore it.. transform it in something productive.....
Am I a monster....yes....but I use my demonic, dark side for a good purpose....and I know my monster so well..that actually I love it and i consider it my magic.....its doesn’t scars me.. it actually amazes me....and I trust it....why? because i dared to focus on it..to explore it... curious to see what has to offer....scary at beginning...but....demons are not bad...they are the once who push us to evolve and to step out our own limitation..to make us evolve.. to make us feel and explore life...to make us be FREE..